Last night I went to the fair with my girlfriend, my friend Erica, and her friend, John.
It was so fun. We rode a ride called the Zipper and it stopped at the very top, and Amanda put her head against mine and we kissed. It was sweet. But then like 5 seconds later the stupid thing started spinning us around again.

Yeah, We both have an anxiety disorder, and neither of us could really handle riding those rides, but it was still fun, even though I couldn't breathe after most of them. xD ^____^


Even though I have so much fun when I'm around her, I tend to still be depressed. I don't know why. I wish it would end. I almost didn't go to the fair with her last night because I didn't feel like moving. I sat around all day feeling like hell. Last weekend we didn't do anything together because I felt like hell. And I don't want her to feel like it's her fault that I feel this way, becuase it's not. She told me she understands, and I believe that she does, I know she's gone through a lot with depression, so I'm sure she doesn't blame herself for me feeling this way, but if I was in her shoes, I'd probably blame myself. I dunno. :\